Author: Octavius

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[Sad Post] What Do I Mean when I Say I’m Suicidal

The first time I had serious thoughts about taking my own life, I was 15. I wasn’t expecting to do it, but I remember one evening sat in my bedroom thinking about what would be the easiest way to do it. School was a nightmare for me. I had reached that age where sexuality starts […]

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Accounting+ on PSVR Review

I’ve never got on with Rick and Morty. I one hundred percent understand why people like it so much – it is daft, it’s quirky, it involves interesting characters – but for me, just halfway through an episode my ears start to hurt. The screeching voice of Morty annoys me, and that forced stutter Rick […]

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My Most-Played Game

One of the things I’ve been studying in my MA is playability – or the science of our addiction to video gaming. I’ll be honest, I have the attention span of a goldfish so I sort of read the books about it without actually taking much info in, but it got me thinking about the […]

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Back to Life <3

I’m back doing Octav1us, starting with a new review uploaded shortly. I’ll do a little catchup video too <3 I think the main problem I had was that I was looking at my videos and critiquing them as if this is actually my full time job, and therefore they should be perfect. It isn’t, it’s […]

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The Final Straw

I think one of the biggest struggles I have with slowly approachingĀ a small bit of notoriety online is knowing that, as a female, I’m going to have to have a much thicker skin than I would need if I was a bloke. In normal day to day life, I’m used to getting heckled on the […]

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On Improving Octav1us

DID I MENTION I FUCKING LOVE YOU GUYS???? Hello šŸ™‚ As I said in my most recent video, I’m taking some time off from Octav1us. I never imagined when I created her, that she would end up needing so much attention from me! She’s super needy, and I need a break. One of the main […]

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Another Update <3

Hi guys, I PROMISE I didn’t set up this website to just be a blog where I go totally emo and go on about how crap I’m feeling all the time. This is meant to be Octavius, not me. Octavius has got it sorted, she’s happy and bubbly and is totally cool with having one […]

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My New Sister In Law

My brother got married today. If you have seen the videos on my channel, you may have seen the video where I played the ZX Spectrum with my little brother. Daniel is just about 14 months younger than me, which I have always seen as a reason to admire my mother letting my dad anywhere […]

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To My Supporters

I have just this momentĀ had the gofundmeĀ for a new laptop removed. Not because I don’t want any more vitriolĀ aimed at me or the gorgeous lady who set it up, since for every one paddywhacking knob getting upset about the fund, there was ten lovely people supporting it and retweeting it. I shut it down because […]

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Anxiety, we meet again!

I just had a phone interview for a contract role I 1. REALLY want because it’s a BIG company and 2. REALLY need because I have no income and the whole rent thing is a thing. And I totally ruined it because anxiety. You know that thing where someone asks you a question that you […]

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